helimatt Key Veteran Location: Lafayette, IN
| Camp, I am sure you've thought through all this ad infinitum,
but should you really give up on them? What I mean is; your kids love their Dad, and need him in their life. You are right in trying to do what make their lives the best- good for you! Yes, its a very difficult water to navigate. You strike me as a very composed and compassionate man. Your son and daughter need that example and your continued nurturing in their lives. Don't give up. There may be some way to continue to stay close and to have time with them (I don't know how, but there must be a way).
I cannot imagine how low you must feel. Got tears in my eyes here- I have four living children and they mean the world to me, and I love that feeling when they greet me as I walk in the door after work, or when I am home and can wake them and help them get their day started, not to mention weekends when we are all at home together. Don't quite know how I'd get along if we were parted- of course I would, but man, what hurt it'd be.
This may be a low point, but it will get better. Don't step out, find a way to stay with them in some form or another.
Their mother may find that living in Europe is not all she thought it might be.
Never, ever, ever, ever give up. |